Tuesday, September 4, 2012

la vraie princesse

"She believed in dreams, all right, but she also believed in doing something about them.
When Prince Charming didn’t come along, she went over to the palace and got him.” 
- Walt Disney 

Real princesses are honest about their own feelings; 

they don't have to hide them and wait for a man 
to rescue them from themselves.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

integrity: a whole-istic approach to life

by God's grace, though I am not perfect, this is who I aim to be
Psalm 101

A psalm of David.

1 I will sing of your love and justice, Lord.
I will praise you with songs.
2 I will be careful to live a blameless life
when will you come to help me?
I will lead a life of integrity
in my own home.

3 I will refuse to look at
anything vile and vulgar.
I hate all who deal crookedly;
I will have nothing to do with them.
4 I will reject perverse ideas
and stay away from every evil.
5 I will not tolerate people who slander their neighbors.
I will not endure conceit and pride.
6 I will search for faithful people
to be my companions.
Only those who are above reproach
will be allowed to serve me.
7 I will not allow deceivers to serve in my house,
and liars will not stay in my presence.
8 My daily task will be to ferret out the wicked
and free the city of the Lord from their grip.

New Living Translation (NLT)
Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright© 1996, 2004, 2007 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

a peace of me

"Deep calls to deep in the roar of Your waterfalls; all Your waves and breakers have swept over me." 
(Psalm 42:7 NIV) 

     (...currently enjoying www.calm.com .)

Sunday, May 20, 2012


What I love...
The smell of wood-smoke...the touch of someone special...the sound of rain...the taste of ice-cold cola...the sound of genuine laughter...the freedom to say what I think...being understood...the feeling of being loved...the butterflies of being in love...the hope of heaven...the awareness of grace...the feeling of soft warm sand between my toes...being able to communicate in a different language...being accepted for who I am...being proud to be an American...being free to think European...knowing God is my security...feeling at rest in strong arms...going swimming in the ocean...wearing a bikini without being judged...feeling sexy and attractive...being strong enough to persevere... saying no to unhelpful options...making my own decisions...giving to someone I love...receiving gifts I don’t deserve...reading about God’s love for me...being hugged by a child.

What I hate...

Limitations and the pain of separation...the sound of fingernails on a chalkboard...racism and political correctness gone mad...misunderstanding and condemnation...guys who flirt but don’t commit...drivers who don’t indicate/signal...the smell of dung...difficult classes who gang up on teachers...buzzing insects around your head at night...adrenalin rushes when I’m trying to sleep...church over-commitment and the judgement of my spiritual life according to what I do rather than Whose I am...the lie that to move around a lot is equal to a lack of commitment...unwillingness to grow or learn...my own sin...worry...Satan...fear of following through a choice made...lack of freedom to be angry...feeling I am despised...the thought of anyone being lost in [any kind of]hell.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

random life quotes I live by

May my name perish; may Jesus be glorified.

Don't surround yourself with people who think as you do; surround yourself with people who think, so you do.

"Sans amour, je ne suis rien."

"Du sprichst zum aufgewuehlten Meer, meiner Seele in mir Herr, Friede mit Dir."

Hola.  Hablo ingles, frances, y alleman, pero no hablo espanole. 

Read at least as much as you write; listen at least as much as you speak.

"The question 'Where are you from?' is outdated.  A better question: 'Where did you live?'  I prefer: 'What are you  passionate about?' "

"Service is never the root of devotion; it must grow as the fruit of a life that remains in the vine."

"The reality of life for Christian men and women requires that they leave what is nailed down, obvious, and secure, and walk into the desert without rational explanations to justify their decisions or guarantee their future."

"I run, therefore I eat bacon."

"Why so serious?"

"God loves whole persons" [negative and positive emotions included].
"Religion loves to correct what you said, Relationship just wants to know why you said it? One cares for the law; the other cares only for the heart!"

"Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so."

Sunday, March 25, 2012

my newest (American) hobby

Decided to change my profile name today to "The Blog Bites Better than the Bullet", which is linked to the idea that "the pen is sharper than the sword", of course.  But it's also a reminder to me to "bite the bullet" and write from the heart; to be honest, no matter who might read this, because telling the truth can change lives.  It's worth it even if my life is the only one affected.
My husband was very excited to take me on our first real shooting date when we could get a babysitter after our son was born.  I was amazed at how fun it was- my usual hobbies have been things like swimming (OK, paddling), blogging and internet-surfing of course, playing the piano, and general laying around watching sit-coms, when I can't afford skiing or ice-skating.  So when I watched my next episode of Frasier today I had to laugh!  Niles is sooooo me; I can be a pretty decent shot, and I follow instructions like him: aim, grip, relax, shoot, etc.  Hilarious.
Growing up in England, I never thought I'd be enjoying this...but then I never knew I'd be living without rain 360 days of the year either.  This is what deserts are for!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Ginger hair; Irish roots

Flogging Molly in Las Vegas 2012
 I have always loved Irish/Celtic music, and Irish or Scottish country dancing.  I think I feel it in my blood deep down that I am part Irish, amongst many other things, and it shows in my reddish hair, for which I am proud.

I am sad my husband couldn't share the moment with me last night when I got to see Flogging Molly in concert in Vegas, but it was fun to sit at the back and watch the show instead of smashed at the front of the mosh-pits.  The dancing and crowds were part of the show, and it was a fun experience.  Though hubby is deployed in Afghanistan, I'm glad I made myself go and enjoy it with another mom; it's been a while since I had a girls' night out, and this was special time. 

In honor of St. Paddy's Day, here are some words from the song "Float" by Flogging Molly that have a lot of meaning for me and my life. 

"Singled out for who you are,

It takes all types to judge a man,

Feel... That's all you can.

Filthy suits with bigot ears,

Hide behind their their own worst fears,

Live... That's all you can.

It's all you can.

It's all you can... do.

No matter where I put my head,

I wake up feeling sound again,

Breathe... It's all you can.

Tomorrow smells of less decay,

The flowers create this blooming fray,

Be thankful... That's all you can."

Friday, February 24, 2012

what do YOU see?

What I see:  The old woman is tired and looking downwards; she has a lot on her mind, and a lot of regrets.  The young woman is aloof and maybe dressed for a party; she hasn't got time for regrets; she's too busy living.

I have been both, and the two ladies are symbolic of two possible interpretations of the truth.

I believe there are two sides to every story, but only one truth.

As a world-traveller, and a homebody too, I have learned it is too easy to stereotype what we see, and actually not see the whole picture.  I believe we could change the world if we understood that things are not always black and white, right or wrong.  If we understood that no one sees things just as we do, it would help us all to accept each other's unique contribution to the world as we know it.

I call myself a life-long learner, but I must guard against arrogance when others show ignorance or immaturity.  My weakness, like Mr. Darcy of Austen's Pride and Prejudice, is that my good opinion, once lost, cannot be restored.  I hate dealing with people who only see things their way, yet I can be guilty of this myself.  I hate arrogance, but I can have a secret snobbery of my own when others show their ignorance of other cultures and the world around them.  I get tired of simplistic thinking and politically correct appeals to the masses, but I do value individuals, even when they haven't experienced what I have.

Perhaps what I am saying is this:  self-awareness cannot happen in a vacuum.  Relationship and connection enable us to better understand, not simply the other person, but rather, ourselves.  "As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another," as the Biblical proverb says.

Going back to the two-truths picture:  what I see reflects my own heart, and I interpret it my own way according to my own truth.  I have regrets:  I regret that in the past I did not more often stand up for what I believe; that I did not communicate into situations where I would have been disapproved of or disagreed with earlier in life.  I could have added to the learning of others, even if I was rejected at first, and I could have learned more if I had interacted with people by dealing with tougher issues. 

I think the freer we become, the younger we feel.  So, no more regrets.  It's time to speak my mind, and time to learn from authentic others.  

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

The Lie

The lie is that we can work our way to God. The lie is that we can sit back and watch while the world burns. The lie is that we can have faith and no fruit. The lie is that we can know where another person's heart is before God. The lie is that sex is sinful. The lie is that money is evil. The lie is that I am never responsible: someone else is always to blame. The lie is that setting boundaries is selfish. The lie is that I am in control. The lie is that everything is black and white. The lie is that perfectionism is godliness. The lie is that I am forgiven but I still need to strive. The lie is that I can please everyone. The lie is that tolerance is necessarily wrong.  The lie is that there are absolutes that must be followed without question. The lie is that there is no such thing as truth or evil. The lie is that love has failed. The lie is that there is no God.  - Melody Kay Young

[updated for clarity 12/16]

‎"Religion loves to correct what you said, Relationship just wants to know why you said it? One cares for the law; the other cares only for the heart!" via The Rep - http://www.facebook.com/therepmusic